January

January was settling in for long winter days, pulling out the coziest blankets, and lighting candles in the evening. Trips for lumber and watching as 2x4's became end tables, complete with little imperfections that made it real. Learning patience as that same lumber needed continual sanding, elbow grease and working with the grain, not against it. It was the extra scarf and finally buying a pair of $3 gloves. Trips upstate for new traditions and Christmas tree bonfires. Grocery runs and learning how to stock a freezer ...

It was seeing New York City for the first time. Walking through Grand Central Station, stopping just to feel the movement and swell of hundreds of people rushing by you. Finding a tiny coffee shop tucked next to the dry cleaners. Catching your breath as you realize you just walked past the Empire State Building. It was warm pretzels from street vendors and miles and miles of walking. Crossing the Brooklyn Bridge and stopping to watch the sun set behind the Statue of Liberty. It was being cold and cranky, and being held tight in a hug. The lights of the city skyline coming on bit by bit ... 

It was waiting in eager anticipation at the airport, attempting to spot your five foot three inches mama amongst the passengers. Holding her tight and trying to stop the tears. Saturdays spent over mugs of coffee and after dinner games. Introducing her to Sunday traditions and Italian pastries. Cuddling up in the evenings, not wanting to close our eyes on another day. Watching a mother's love transform an apartment into a home. Mishaps and trips to the emergency room. The kindness of loved ones and nursing staff. Chocolate ice-cream and trying to slow down time. Tears and tight hugs and 'I'll see you soon's ...

It was counting it all joy.